EVERYDAY STARTS AT THE MIDNIGHT

Monday, January 26, 2009

Thee knows what i need



God Answer my Dream,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

let me tell u about my day so far,
a glass of milk on my desk,
surfing internet,
some sticks of cigarette, ooops sorry i dont smoke, no more.
o ya i got phone from egyptian gal,
and i jump back to my bed again watching HBO actually
my favo channel, and all b'4 lunch.
with remote control in my hand, yes i want controling automatically with this shit. what i want is "universal control" spoiling me! make better life!
and i enjoy my all day long, with some new thing in my life
this life surprise me, a ha! booring??? not anymore. shes gone
and i..... never better like this.
well one week ago, i altered my occupation with goddamn new
one. this experience wow! just fucking fresh. i never do
like this done before.
O.K umm .... guess what!! what do i do!
i was accepted as RnD staff in a company in my hometown
exactly, PT.BEHAESTEX. so im glad what ill suppose to do later
facing all absolutly brand new thing in my life
first day; assimilating, to know each other person, introducing
myself and i did nuthin' but waitin, just becouse i dont
really know what will i do!
just wait and see!
so this tip is for u
lesson number one; just pretend to be dumb guy, low profile please! "pedantry" never do this, or pedantically done, dont be!
flow! and ask as u need! too many question, someone label u,
like a fool. know the environment! how flow process of da
company where u are! i think will better u

ok just be u!
but.....
i doubt it
ummm gmn ya!
hidup adalah seni meniru
weeefhf
honey.... i need ta discuss it with u
i need u more than ever now that i've come so far
\rif

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Life is confusing journey : there's no an accident

ooow dear!
poor rivani, i wish everything gon' be ok. i hope so! this accident happened over and over again, I was hit by a car, and i must stand on this condition again again and again; yes right that was sign of goodness was given by God; these feelings imprisoning me, i thought i've been cursed or this kind of daily ritual that i have to serve; this accident, how come this always happen to me? I thought Thee spoke to me with some different languages, so Thee push me to understand this conversation. God i thanked Thee, ev'ry single sign U gave. i still believe this was the answer of my praying 2 U; I believe:

first of all: God said yes, and he approved da done of mine, and gave me what I wanted
secondly: God said no, and gave me better things
last : God said wait, and gave me best things at da best time

da other perspective of mine, I saw this accident as the price that I ought to pay for ev’ry single Goddamn crazy thing I’ve ever done. God warned me! But I gon’ try my hardest to forgave myself; ta repeat doing some other fucking crazy thing in this world. Well now, I couldn’t erase these accidents, the memories stain in my fucking mind, that I’ve always done for years, I did so many fucking ridiculious stupid things; wheefhf, nothing was real but pain now, and then I ought to take this life any other way. Now, just like running but it stays right by my side.
I can’t believe the price I must to pay that I’ve loved my life so much;
Life is Confusing journey! No surprise